In which I egocentrically bloviate about school and languages... sort of

I like learning smatterings of skills that are vaguely obscure/apparentlyuseless.
I've also lately developed a thing for certain fonts in 10.5pt.
Also, at the moment, for all intents and purposes, I do no subjects other than 3U and 4U English. As in, I do, obviously, but at the moment, work for those two subjects is dominating my life.

I think I am now actually constantly thinking of / aware of school. Like aaaall the time, thinking things like "I should do work" and "I could be doing work right now" and "it's my own fault I wasted so much time earlier" and "oh look, I'm doing the procrastinating thing agian..."

Okay, those last three were just particularly prevalent today because I tend to be extra-procrastinatey on Saturdays. And whiny.

Also, I've added German and Russian keyboard layouts to my language bar thingy. I've more-or-less mastered the former, and I can roughly remember the locations of about four keys in the latter. Because I'm just so cool/pro like that. German keyboard's actually quite easy, seeing as it's just Z and Y swapping places and some shifting around of symbols and handy additions of the umlauted letters and ß. I added Russian when I was procrastinating working on my Belonging speech last week, and I added German a couple days ago when I was working on a mini-essay piece of homework for Extension German, a 300-word thing that took me an extremely long time to write... and I used a dictionary heeeeaps because the topics/etc. in ExtGerman are rather different/moreserious than what you get in Continuers. At this moment in time I could write a fairly decent typical writing task for Continuers without using a dictionary at all, but if you chucked me into a typical EXTENSION writing task without a dictionary ==> EEEEEEEEEEK

...Which is why I really really need to do more practice for Extension.

Oh, Extension subjects. Why are you so annoying? /obviousquestion
But seriously, 3U+4U Eng and ExtGerman are my most challenging subjects atm... I think. Actually, I'm fairly lost in Mod, too, atm, due to my very poor grasp of economics which is basically what the majority of our current topic is composed of.

ACTUALLY, I think I'm okay for 4U right now but...

Yeah, you know what, I'll just stop talking and go do work now.

Confession #1

Guys, today I would like to share with you a fatal flaw in my character. What is this flaw, you ask? Why, none other than the fact that I have a feverishly ardent hatred of doing housework. I hate it. It's time-consuming and boring and, after a couple years, I apparently still cannot sweep floors properly. My hatred of housework even rivals -- nay, surpasses -- that which I harbour for bio pracs, which should give you some indication of how much I do not like mopping/sweeping floors and cleaning bathrooms and wiping dust from furniture. And not only is housework something I really do not like, it is also something which puts me in a reasonably bad mood, with the result that I get easily annoyed at everything and act like a bitchy whiny spoilt brat, e.g. now

Which is why I've decided that anyone I may end up living with must be proficient at housework. Also, talkative, so as to fend off boredom while dusting furniture or whatever.



...In other news, I do believe I have put more effort into this post than anything I've written here in quite a while.

:D

Self-loathing gone, after a fluctuating-in-strength reign of what... 36 hours or something? ROUGHLY.
But yeah, it got chased away by Belonging :D
So now I'm happy :D

Now: to rewrite a letter for my ExtGerman homework, write up a couple Bio pracs, and then... upload some art, maybe make a Tumblr for my (drawing)art again. Yeah, I used to have one but then I killed it. But I want to restart one. Yeah.

Also, I have a new deviantART account for photography (:

[ dustpigeons! ]


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This weekend:
Must must must work on English Ext1&2 creatives.

Self-loathing.

Yeah, that's all for now
/wangst

fear/four vor/für vier

Dear creativity,
Please siphon some of your focus away from art/talking/doingstupidthings/dreams and focus it on 4 UNIT ENGLISH. Also, on 3 UNIT ENGLISH too. Thank you :D

Dear lethargy,
You just can't stay away from me, can you?

Dear procrastination,
Our abusive relationship appears to be characterised by sadism on your part and masochism on mine.

Dear inspiration,
My deadline is less than 24 hours away. I hope that's close enough for you (:

Did I mention I like Tokio Hotel

You know those lists of nice/simple/awesome things like "snuggling up with a book and hot chocolate on a cold winter's day" and "winning arguments" and stuff like that (they seem to turn up on Tumblr a bit), I'd like to add my own contribution to that, a realisation I've re-realised a minute or two ago while watching YT lyric vids of Tokio Hotel songs:

When you get obsessed with songs in your non-native language that you can't understand much of at all and then some time later when you  have gained more language proficiency and suddenly it's like OMG HEY I CAN UNDERSTAND THIS NOW FAHAHAHAHHAHA

tl;dr - understanding songs that aren't in your native language / a language in which you're fluent

PAWD

Post-Assessment Withdrawal Disorder.

That's right, I just diagnosed myself and made up a disease OH SNAP.
Meaning, I've noticed that in the immediate 24 hours or so after a major-ish assessment that has caused me distress, I go into this... assessment withdrawal. Symptoms -

- do not want to do any work
- dazed. what is this, no urgent work to do?!
- sitting in front of computer doing nothing productive
- in need of eargasm-inducing music and unable to find any

...Or maybe that's just what it's like today. Yeah.
This only applies to assessments that have made me angry for longer than a day or so. Also, they have to be HSC-counting assessments. I think.

But sometimes HSC-counting assessments don't cause me to stress/procrastinatehorribly beforehand, and those are okay.


WHAT A FRIGGING DISJOINTED/RANDOM POST. Okay maybe not that bad compared to others, but for some reason I feel like my ability to articulate has been... forced to run a four-minute mile, briefly experienced a spasm of victory/relief, collapsed into a state of restful quiescence, then extremely suddenly roused from its catatonic pseudo-hibernation and IMMEDIATELY DEFENESTRATED (from a vertigo-inducing height)

And yeah I do occasionally like using unnecessarily sesquipedalian words. Not otiose at all. This is kind of fun, acting like a vocab-tard. Maybe I should play FreeRice now. GETTING PAST LEVEL 50 = SO FRIGGING HARD --


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Oh, look, I have homework to do.

skirmish won! now for the battle. and, in 9 months or so, the chunk of horribly decisive battles that will 50% determine the outcome of the war (:

I am of the opinion that getting a sore throat from practicing a speech is ALIENATING.

One reason to look forward to winter:

MANDARINS!

Hallo, Panik (:

1. My Tokio Hotel obsession has waned somewhat
2. I'm developed a dodgy penchant for songs in non-German/English, e.g. Italian, i.e. subjects I don't study, and this is proving a bit distracting/procrastination-fuelling
3. I do 3 units of German!

And so I've decided it's time for me to get obsessed with another German band/musician. Likely contender atm seems to be PANIK, a German rock/nu metal band which... sounds kiiiiiiinda like Linkin Park used to sound. Haha. I've fallen for a few of their songs so far, one of them being one that is called "Lass Mich Fallen" hahah. You know, I never really thought of reading that German word as English "fallen", funnily enough. Realised that just then. Yeah okay I'm shutting up now.

I'M NOT. LIES.


[ ich lass mich einfach fallen :D ]

mi chiamo pioggia e sono molto fastidiosa :)

I complain a lot and I think my mood is currently depending on things like air-conditioning and talking.
Time to try using music as a happy-making influence yayyyyy (:

Oh and yeah, school started. It's pretty cool. Apart from the whole 30/40degreescelsius thing.

Death be not proud <= cool stuff
USA prohibition era <= I'm a bit 'meh' about that
Biology <= I hate pracs. Other than that it's okay.
German continuers <= ♥
German extension <= not bad, not bad... I think...
NavGlobal <= I'm not saying anything until I get my assessment back urghhhh

Oh and 4U? I didn't die. That's all I'm saying.


I find myself looking forward to such things as being able to cook 2minute noodles in the common room when it's winter. And... oh god. Belonging speech due in like a week. This is the part where I cry.

Yeah, okay, see what I said about complaining a lot?

Though atm I happen to be richer/safer than the vast majority of the human population so I should shut up.
Omg this is so unproductive. *goes back to drawing*

...which, you know, has nothing to do with school work but is more productive than wangsting :D