English

This is the part of the stupid stamina run where I slow to an almost-halt, lungs burning, and keep stumbling along at a zombie-walk ... oh it is so tempting to just collapse on the track right here. The finish line is RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME and yet ...

//brainshuttingdowninprotest

x_X

Frigging ... stupid ... extended stamina run for English ...

Self-loathing.

Yeah, that's all for now
/wangst

fear/four vor/für vier

Dear creativity,
Please siphon some of your focus away from art/talking/doingstupidthings/dreams and focus it on 4 UNIT ENGLISH. Also, on 3 UNIT ENGLISH too. Thank you :D

Dear lethargy,
You just can't stay away from me, can you?

Dear procrastination,
Our abusive relationship appears to be characterised by sadism on your part and masochism on mine.

Dear inspiration,
My deadline is less than 24 hours away. I hope that's close enough for you (:

PAWD

Post-Assessment Withdrawal Disorder.

That's right, I just diagnosed myself and made up a disease OH SNAP.
Meaning, I've noticed that in the immediate 24 hours or so after a major-ish assessment that has caused me distress, I go into this... assessment withdrawal. Symptoms -

- do not want to do any work
- dazed. what is this, no urgent work to do?!
- sitting in front of computer doing nothing productive
- in need of eargasm-inducing music and unable to find any

...Or maybe that's just what it's like today. Yeah.
This only applies to assessments that have made me angry for longer than a day or so. Also, they have to be HSC-counting assessments. I think.

But sometimes HSC-counting assessments don't cause me to stress/procrastinatehorribly beforehand, and those are okay.


WHAT A FRIGGING DISJOINTED/RANDOM POST. Okay maybe not that bad compared to others, but for some reason I feel like my ability to articulate has been... forced to run a four-minute mile, briefly experienced a spasm of victory/relief, collapsed into a state of restful quiescence, then extremely suddenly roused from its catatonic pseudo-hibernation and IMMEDIATELY DEFENESTRATED (from a vertigo-inducing height)

And yeah I do occasionally like using unnecessarily sesquipedalian words. Not otiose at all. This is kind of fun, acting like a vocab-tard. Maybe I should play FreeRice now. GETTING PAST LEVEL 50 = SO FRIGGING HARD --


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Oh, look, I have homework to do.

skirmish won! now for the battle. and, in 9 months or so, the chunk of horribly decisive battles that will 50% determine the outcome of the war (:

I am of the opinion that getting a sore throat from practicing a speech is ALIENATING.

This is actually really really really really bad

This is worse than my ExtEng poco thing. This is worse than viva voce thing. This is just worse. Bad. Baaaaad.

UND JEDES MAL WIRD'S SCHLIMMER
/random lyric which in context has nothing to do with what i'm ranting about

Oh and I have Pocahontas' Colors of the Wind in my head. In two languages.
And I'm gripped by the feeling that what I'm blogging about is colossally irrelevant/mundane, but whatever.
I've somehow... destroyed all my progress. Major remodelling that... destroyed what I have and... I'm now waiting for some awesomer-than-previous plot to rise, phoenixwise, from the ashes.

Mein Gott, sprich nicht mit mir über 4UUUUUUU

FÜR EINE UNSAGBAR STÖRENDE PERSON. And be glad that German doesn't flip word genders depending on the person... much... I think...

GUTEN TAG, ALICE.

Wie schade, das dein Name kein wörtliche Übersetzung hat. Oder vielleicht könnte ich dich "Fröschlein" nennen... weil dein WLM-Avatar ein Frosch ist (:

Naja, was soll ich schreiben? Ich habe dein Blog auf Italienisch vor langer Zeit gelesen, aber für irgendeine Grund habe ich das dir nicht erzählt... ACH JA, du hast nichts dagegen, oder?

NUN, ich muss euch warnen... benutzt nicht Google Translate! Stattdessen, benutzt dict.cc! Viel besser, danke (:

Also, ich habe für ein paar Gründe beschlossen, diesen Eintrag zu schreiben...

1. Ich will nicht meinen Hausaufgaben machen. Dieser Eintrag ist Aufschub! Verzögerung! Welches Wort ist besser für "procrastination"? Ich weiß nicht, werde meine Lehrerin fragen, wenn ich zurück zur Schule bin.

2. Ich habe Alices "TOCCA A TE" gelesen und dann habe ich gedacht, "hmm ich könnte eine Antwort schreiben... warum nicht?"

Nun, vielleicht hast du (Alice) erwartet, dass ich AUF ITALIENISCH schreiben würde? NEINNNN. Ich habe alles vergessen! ...Fast alles. Wie schade.


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ICH  BIN GELANGWEILT
ICH WILL NICHT HAUSAUFGABEN MACHEN
JA, ICH BESCHWERE MICH SEHR VIEL. Zu viel? MIR IST EGALLL~~~
//Gequake

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Jetzt stehle ich Alices Idee, für etwas zu schreiben. Hmm, ist das korrekt auf Deutsch? "für etwas zu schreiben..."

Heute habe ich am... 8. Uhr aufgestanden... (ACHHHH mein Deutsch verschlechtert!!! Ich habe "aufgestehen" geschrieben. Eigentlich habe ich viele Wörter mit dict.cc gesucht... und jetzt will ich nicht mehr, ein Wörterbuch benutzten. Ich bin zu faul. Fehler, ich komme!)

Ich habe am 8. Uhr aufgestanden. Zum Frühstück habe ich etwas gegessen, das ich nicht auf Deutsch schreiben kann. Englisch: MILO CEREAL LOLOLOLOLOL

Bis zum 2. Uhr oder so hatte ich furchtbar schlechte Laune. Ich habe nichts getan, außer im Internet zu surfen und zufällige Sites zu besuchen... Ich habe keine Hausaufgaben gemacht, keine gezeichnet, sogar keine gute Bücher gelesen... Wie zwecklos/deprimierend.


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Ich habe mich so oft gefragt: WARUM HABE ICH LEISTUNGSKURS-ZWEI-ENGLISCH ALS EIN FACH? WARUM?

Ich weiß warum:
I. Ich bin gut in Englisch. Offenbar.
II. Ich kann gut schreiben. Ich schreibe gern Geschichte... irgendwie.
III. Meine Fächer am Ende der 11. Klasse waren Englisch, Leistungskurs-Eins-Englisch, Deutsch, Biologie, Moderne Geschichte und Kunst. Ich wollte bestimmt mit Kunst aufhören und Leistungskursdeutsch lernen... dann hatte ich nur 10 "units". Ich wollte nicht nur 10 haben und so habe ich einen(ein?) anderer(anderes??) Fach gewählt. Ein Leistungskurs-Fach, weil ich nicht 12 "units" haben wollte. Die einzigen Wahlen waren Leistungskurs-Zwei-Englisch oder Leistungskursgeschichte.

WARUM HABE ICH LEISTUNGSKURS-ZWEI-ENGLISCH GEWÄHLT UND NICHT STATTDESSEN LEISTUNGSKURSGESCHICHTE ?!

Ich weiß: denn ich lerne nicht gern über Sachen wie "Was ist Geschichte?" und so.

ABER MIT LEISTUNGSKURSGESCHICHTE MUSS ICH NICHT KREATIV SEIN
AAAAAAAAAGGGHHHHHH



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Okay crap it's 9:21 somehow I've WASTED MY EVENING writing this semi-butchered-German blog entry and... MSN... AND NOTHING ELSE FRRRRRR

And yeah I count "evening" as "when I turned on my computer this evening", for some reason.

 
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGHHHHHH

Wow I think this might be the longest blog entry I've written in a while.
What a boring note to end on, so I'll stick something else here... hmm... I don't know...

I want a high-nineties ATAR, as in ridiculously-high-nineties. I'm going about my preparations to achieve that in a REALLY GOOD WAY, aren't I? Frigging hell. The ONLY subject I've been working on for most days is GERMAN and that's because I can use it to procrastinate, i.e. reading comics on Bravo.de and doing quizzes on Maedchen.de ...

I really should be trying my hand at Spiegel.de articles instead, lol.

OHHHH and I've watched the German news a few times, actually, that's kind of nice because the third time I watched it, I felt like I UNDERSTOOD MOAR! YAYYYYY

But still freakishly fast/fluent.

HAHAHAHHA I sound like one of those obnoxious passive/aggressive nerds who are like "OMG I'M SO BAD, I'M FAILING EVERYTHING, I ONLY GOT 78/79 FOR MY EXAM, THAT'S SO BAD BAAAAAW, and you know what I've done nothing at all these holidays except write syllabus notes for every single one of my subjects and finish all my assignments and do some extra reading for this year's topics and print out five years' worth of past papers, which by the way I have completed all of..."

//exaggerated lampshading

Actually you know what, I bet if anyone from my German class read this blog entry they'd want to stake me or something. Because I'm such a German nerd... comparatively. AHAHAHAHHA. I wonder if I'll be able to keep my crown...

Don't you dare link this to people in my German class or I'll stake you (:



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Lol it'll be so funny if everyone from my class had turned into swots far nerdier than I.


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Yeah okay long nerdy post is endinggggggggggggggg


NAO


P.S. I think this is one of the most obnoxious things I've ever posted here.

VERDAMMTE ELLIPSE

Fucking hate this mood when I don't feel like doing anything

Hmmmmm might go watch a movie or something.

say something funny

You know when you're in a bad mood you don't feel like doing work
And now I'm like "fuck this I'm in a bad mood, I'm not going to do work, I'm going to do fun/happymaking stuff"
Self-granted license-to-slack-off

pshhhhhhhh

Did write abt 500 words of German yesterday though :D

AAAALSLDFJKLJFFFFFF~~~~

Sudden urge to swear for no really good reason
I'M GOING TO REGRET THIS SOON, THIS WHOLE DOING-NO-WORK THING
FUCK IT'S THE 17TH TODAY
MEANING
31ST CREEPING EVER NEARER
OMG



Come on, deadline, work your magic...

Scheiße////
Accidenti, d'arvit, etc. etc.

FRACKING SUNBURN

Last week I went to the beach and it was awesome except for the fact that I got a relatively (by my standards) horrific sunburn due to a combination of radiant Australian sunshine and my lack of sunscreen application on the day, which had resulted from an unhealthy paranoia that had been stoked up by learning of the sunscreen controversy.

FUCK I HATE IT WHEN SUNBURNS PEEL OFF
It's annoying and disgusting and
/spasm

It's worse than the tingly pain that made me inwardly flinch when my dad grabbed my shoulders as a joke and when my mum tried rousing me by shaking me by the shoulder. It's worse than having to take lukewarm/cool showers for a few days because hot water makes sunburned skin cry. I'd actually rather have a couple more days of tingly pain than this repulsive peeling.

It isn't, however, worse than the skin cancer which could result from getting sunburnt.


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Yeah in the [approximate] wording of Alice, "screw controversy, i'm using sunscreen next time"

Someone threaten me with a Maghook.

TOMORROW
I will not go on Facebook, Tumblr, Cracked, etc. etc. etc.
I will not go on deviantART unless I have something to upload


I WILL MAKE SYLLABUS NOTES FOR AT LEAST 10 BIOLOGY DOTPOINTS
I WILL ... SOMEHOW ... WORK ON 4U ENGLISH ... ... ...


If I do procrastinate, it will either be by drawing/painting
Or it will be on Bravo.de/Maedchen.de/someothergermansite


/flail

hail the nerdiness

Oh what the hell, I'm going into withdrawal from lack of assessments or something. I need to do something productive and actually kind of complete it, e.g. draw

Thaaaaaaaaaaanks

Okay, so, the genius in my head kind of filled most of the requirements I was thinking of however I am lacking about 30% of a plot. A kind of vital 30%, sooo...

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
I WILL SACRIFICE MORE SLEEP TO YOU
EVEN IF I GET QUASI-PERMANENT SHADOWS BENEATH MY EYES
which will be so not as attractive as eyeliner eye-shadows as seen on L Lawliet

Yeah, everything I type these days into a box on a screen sounds vaguely idiotic...?
Man, gotta stop with these retarded disclaimers after everything I say--

Pseudo-prayer Nr. 2

Now is the time for the genius that lives in my head to come back from extended, extended leave and pour all creative energies into 4U English.

I don't care if I get an art block for the next 6 months, EXT2ENGGGGGG

More notes to self

FRIGGING HELL.
STAY AWAY FROM THE BLOGS / SOCIAL SITES UNLESS YOU'VE ALREADY DONE SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE / REALLY GENUINELY FUN AAAARGH

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tl;dr-inducing version:
When getting home and finding you can actually afford to spend a couple of hours doing non-schoolwork, i.e. when you have free time and no huuuugely pressing assessments...

DO NOT go on Tumblr/FB/Formspring/any-kind-of-blog-slash-social-networking-thing first thing when you turn on the comp. IT MELTS YOUR BRAIN, SERIOUSLY, AAGHHH

Instead, play chess. Or DRAW <3
Or write. Or even browse deviantART, at least that's inspiring. But don't browse through deviantART literature because you'll probably be sucked into the cesspool of beautiful-and-pretty-and-nice-but-INCREDIBLY-ANGSTY-AND-OVERDONE poetry/prose/prosetry that you seem to always be drawn to somehow... and that will also melt your brain.

WOOOOOOO--

More-or-less finished all of the assessment except for the concluding paragraph. And I have to insert all the diagrams and photos and do some formatting. But other than that, WOOO!

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Aber ich habe den Wetterbericht gerade gesehen und die Vorhersage gefällt mir überhaupts nicht... T_T"
HOFFENTLICH WIRD DAS WETTER ÄNDERN (:
BITTTTTTTTTTTE

even closer to end of bio-assessment-road!

AAAGH JUST TWO MORE VERTEBRATE FORELIMBS TO GO
i.e. frog and some reptile, probably a lizard

!$@w#e^r%*i(*jrhegwqr#y%eityi(yu^y%!

-oh yeah and the concluding paragraph linking ot evolutionary process

reeeeeeach[ing the end of the road of the vertebrate forelimb part of the bio assessment]

Urgh three more forelimbs to write about - bat, bird and some reptile
I think
And then, the evolution-link conclusion thing and then I'll be done with the written part of Part A of the Bio assessment HMNGLKHSDFLKDJFFFF.

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Oh yeah and now I have a couple things about horse anatomy to add to my roiling repository of largely-useless-but-impressive knowledge, i.e. trivia

initiating "stuff-this" sequence

OKAY STUFF THIS I CANNOT / REALLY DON'T WANT TO DO WORK
HAVE NOT DONE ANYTHING TODAY, ALMOST
ANOTHER COUPLE OF HOURS BLAH
STUFF THIS
I AM NOT GOING TO KEEP RANDOMLY BROWSING SHIT FOR THE NEXT FEW HOURS
IF I'M GOING TO BLUDGE, IT WILL BE PRODUCTIVE BLUDGE
MEANING, NANOWRIMO (WHICH IS PISSING ME OFF NOW, SO MAYBE NOT) OR DRAWING/PAINTING MMMK

MMMK.