blast from the paaaaaaaaast /edit

LULZZZZ
Rewriting this post. The part where I pasted some stuff I wrote to myself two years ago - IT'S GONE.

AND YOU KNOW WHY?
Because it feels weird posting it up here. Even though none of it is seriously private stuff (I mean, if it were, I probably wouldn't be releasing it into the Interwebz, not even my non-large-audience-possessing corner of it). It just feels weird.

...HAHAH YEAH I LIKE PRIVACY. Even for things that aren't needing of much privacy.

Though I'm sure some of you've already read it. In which case, awesome. You now know about that time I was a flag person for a Commemoration Sunday ceremony and the fucking flagpole came apart in my hands somehow and then during the ceremony 'Girlfriend' randomly started playing and continued on for a bit before stopping. And if you didn't know that, you do now.

Just as you will very shortly know about that time I was like OMG FIREARM DRILL IS SO FUN after doing firearm drill for what was... the first time, I think? Yeah. Those fake rifles used were painful, man. And I was a weak little weed. Actually, I think I still am. But despite the pain/weight, it was still fun for some reason. More fun than static drill or marching...

YEAHHHH.

I... really shouldn't take breaks from studying by going on Blogger / the Internet in general. Turns from a break into one long procrastination mess.

Oh and comments please (:
I love comments! <3333~~~~~

...Okay seriously. Comments. Don't read this and not comment! Leave some kind of trace, yo!

VICTORYYYYYY + ewwww + vegetarianism

Today I have achieved two great things:

1. BEAT EPISODE 7 OF N FFFFFFFFFYESZ it took ages TT"
2. FINALLY BEAT COMPUTER ON LEVEL 2 OF CHESS TITANS! ...This time I actually took more than five or ten seconds to think before making a move hahahah. I GOT TWO QUEENS AND WIPED ALL THE OTHER PIECES FAHAHAHHAA. Okay I'll shut up now. About chess.

Mother dear is getting paranoid about my sudden liking of games at the start of Year Twelve. It is indeed vaguely worrying. Lulz.


OH GUESS WHAT
I watched part of this horrific video about animal cruelty today, i.e. how they treat animals in farms. It was actually quite disgusting. It is actually making me seriously want to be come vegetarian. Shout-out to my blog readers: remind me that I said I wanted to be vego (:

Because of my lack of willpower in regards to this eating thing.

NO BUT SERIOUSLY those chickens are stacked in cages so that all the excrement falls through onto the animals below, and the ammonia and shit burns their feathers/skin, and other shitty conditions cause them to get osteoporosis, which makes their bones snap verrryyy easily. And they also get de-beaked with a fucking red-hot metal thing. Not to mention that, in essence, various people's desire to cut back on costs means that the chickens aren't electrocuted properly in the slaughterhouses thus they remain conscious when having their throats slit (oh and by this stage heaps of them have broken bones from being transported or whatever)... and then they get dipped in boiling water in order to make plucking feathers easier.

Wow, grisly details are so easy to remember.

AND THE CHICKS. THE BABY CHICKENS. It is so very disturbing to see footage of a room full of chicks (you know, those cute little yellow fluffballs?) all over the floor, with some guy using a shovel to pick them up and toss them into a box or whatever.

The male chicks get shredded alive.



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Yeah, so this is behind my decision to lessen my meat intake.

(Also, the vegetarianism = less impact on climate change reason... but mostly it's the ethics/animal cruelty/sheer abject horror.)

Oh, and as for the argument that may arise about how people are hypocrites if they are vegetarian yet still use animal products (e.g. leather) - would you rather people not bother going vegetarian at all?

Answering somewhat detailed questions about strategies in WWI

...makes me feel like I'm a student/recruit/trainee at some weird military 'use-cool-seeming-weapons-and-bash-people-around-a-lot' kind of academy, like the kind you'd find in a CHERUB/Alex-Rider-like book. As opposed to, you know, high school.

This is what happens when you have an unhealthy interest in violent stuff and you have read a fair share of CHERUB and Alex Rider. And have a young-adult-novel-centric mind/imagination.

Tracey, can I please read your blog?

Though feel free to refuse if you really want to. But I would like to be able to read it. (:


-IN OTHER NEWS

1. I feel extremely studious at the moment. HAVEN'T BLUDGED TODAY... MUCH... SINCE I GOT HOME... only for half an hour or so HAHAHHA. What I have been doing is reading some sheets on strategies in WWI... omfg. And answering questions about strategy. And the reason I finally turned on the computer a few minutes ago was to check out the Brits' strategy at the Third Ypres, aka. Passchendaele. PROUD OF ME? YOU SHOULD BE. LOOOOOL.

2. I like German. Modern History and German (both Continuers and Extension) are my favourite subjects right now. Mod because we're learning about WWI and I actually find this sort of thing interesting and really fun to learn about and German because... it's... non-stressful. And I have confidence for this. Like, more confidence than for anything else HAHAHHAHAHA. Though subjunctive II mood is annoying. And... ehh. Need to stay non-complacent.

3. Passchendaele... apparently notable because of the hideous amounts of MUD that was everywhere. Did you know that soldiers DROWNED IN MUD on the Western Front? And that shellshocked soldiers would sometimes be tied to a post in no man's land? And that trench foot involves your feet swelling and rotting and apparently your socks grew into your feet. Eurrrrggghhhhhh.

zombies and apocalpyses

Elena's recent apocalypse blog post reminded me of this...

7 Scientific Reasons a Zombie Outbreak Would Fail (Quickly)

Of course you can go on about different variations of zombies and stuff, but this article's pretty cool anyway. And on a related note... I never picture a zombie apocalypse and this article has only consolidated that view in my mind. I always think more... climate-related shit. I think in terms of apocalypses... I think... most likely climate-related crap, then... nuclear/war (i.e. violent human machine-involving things).

Robots-taking-over (like in The Matrix or whatever) doesn't really occur to me. Neither does zombies. Just... hordes of stuff never really occurs to me.

Speaking of hordes of stuff, GREY GOO.

'du bist das beste was mir je passiert ist'

Listening repeatedly to Silbermond's 'Das Beste'
[ link ]

Such a pretty song <3

massive Gleekery

This post contains Glee spoilers regarding episode 4 of season 2 (:

Highlight to read.

I LOVED THAT EPISODE. OMG SAM/QUINN. SAM/QUINN. SAMQUINN SAMQUINN SAMQUINN SAMQUINN OMG <3333333333 SO MUCH LOVE AAAGHAHAHAH THEY'RE SO CUUUUTE AND SWEET I HOPE THEY STAY TOGETHER AAAHHH SO CUUUUUUTE SQUEEEE.

...SO CUUUUUTE.

Random thoughts about Quinn's character: hmm don't really like how she's still randomly a bitch to Rachel - well, she's not, actually, not anymore, but the random "what I need is to find ways to torture Rachel" or whatever... that was like "ehh?" and kind of dodgy I think. But lol IDK, old habits die hard? I'll vaguely forgive her for that since Quinn's a much nicer character now than the mega-bitch she was in the first few eps of season 1.

I just read a couple random comments on YouTube regarding the current Glee pairings. And here's what I have to say...

Sam/Quinn = OMG <333333

Finn/Rachel = LOVE

Tina/Mike = haha they seem like typical cute/sweet average couple. Tina and Artie were cute together, but I don't prefer that pairing... and actually I totally see why Tina dumped Artie LOL (it was... ignoring / staying outta contact because of some huge Halo marathon or something? Hahaha, as far as I can recall...).

I'm not going into the rest as they're not canon.

OHMYGOD SAM/QUINNNNNN <3

Anyway, some people are/were hoping that Sam and Kurt would get together.

I say no, because... it doesn't seem right! Mainly because Sam doesn't seem gay and he says he isn't. I don't like pairings of characters that go against their canon sexual orientation... I mean if Kurt hooked up with an actual out gay guy that'd be cool, but not with a probably-straight guy.

ALSO, the fact that I love Sam/Quinn so much.

Lol Sam/Quinn = Sinn

HAHAHAHAH I LIKE.

Though doesn't suit them because they seem so sweeeeet and non-malevolent, but that's partly why I like the idea of having such an oppositey name. SINNN.

Now, regarding Quinn... and Puck. Quinn/Puck.

I used to be a fan of Quinn/Puck. I thought it was sweet. They're sweet together. But in that episode where it was revealed that Puck was sexting Santana while vaguely 'together' with Quinn (what was it, Hairography?)... I was fully like PUCK YOU ASSHOLE. And while I still thought Quinn/Puck was cute, I was never really down with Puck's sexual debauchery promiscuity whole "sex shark" thing. So yeah.

One reason that I think Sam/Quinn is cool is that... well, Sam so far seems like the kinda guy that Quinn deserves. I.E. a non-player nice sweet benevolent guy who'll treat her right.

OMG THEY'RE SO CUTE /explodes

And as for Finn/Quinn, no way. Just nooo. Finn's with Rachel and I am totally digging Finchel ('twas my fave pairing until Sam/Quinn which is like my frigging OTP now... for TV shows, haha, I have one or two more for other media). And Quinn's whole pregnancy thing... yeah... kind of blew apart their relationship. And also, while the Inns were together, Quinn was a MAJOR BITCH. Possibly another reason why I don't like Finn/Quinn.

...Oh yeah and just for the record, I didn't love this episode just because of Sam/Quinn. I thought it was pretty good overall. Hehe. (No, seriously.)

But that said... SINNNNNN <3

I just realised that I forgot another canon couple - Emma and Carl.

Hmm I liked Will and Emma (omg I was such a Wemma fan while Terri was doing her bitch thing) but when Will made out with Shelby Corcoran it was like "WILL YOU ASS"... but I still liked Wemma. But I don't mind that she's with Carl. And she and Carl seem happy, so eh. If Emma however does get back with Will... ehh don't really mind. ALTHOUGH, I really didn't like how Will made such a tryhard ass of himself in the second episode of season 2 (Brittany/Britney?). Made me quite a bit less sympathetic of Will.

Okay I think I've gotten most of the Sam/Quinn squee out of my system. As in, I still love that pairing SO FRIGGING HARD but I... think I will be able to pass the rest of this eventing without proclaiming my love every 150 words or so.

MAYBE, LOLLL.

...Yeah disagree if you want. But if you're going to vocalise it here, do it with some nice degree of civility or not at all (:

MORGEN BEGINNT DIE ZWÖLFTEN KLASSE

SEID IHR BEREIT?



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Hahahh YAY I finished the letter challenge. Ugh. I don't think I want to do something like that soon lol. Or maybe... yeah whatever.

YEAHHHH YEAR TWELVE LOL HAHHA. PSYCHED?

As you can see, I'm high on happy now. Yay.

All the best guys, let's OWN THIS YEAR !

30letters- THIRTY

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror 

Hello there,

I guess there are two ways I could do this - well, more, but two main ones that spring to mind. One way is to write to you as a reflection, that is, nothing more but an image in a glass; another way is to write as if you are me. Hmm. This letter will probably be a mixture of both.

First things first - did you know that I sometimes have random imaginings of you turning into a skeleton before my eyes, or of you suddenly not following my every move, or of you having blood leaking from your eyes like tears? (Yeah, thanks, Supernatural. And imagination.) Yeah, you needed to know that. PLEASE don't do any of that, because I'll probably... actually, I don't know what I'd do. AND I DON'T WANT TO FIND OUT. THANKS!

Now, moving on...

I've some important messages to give to you. Absorb them and throw them back at my tangible self, please.

Tomorrow is your first day of YEAR TWELVE! Well, probably still Year Eleven officially, but Year Twelve syllabus so basically Year Twelve in all but name, or something like that. Anyway.

1. Do not get complacent. Do not get complacent. Do not get complacent.
2. If you screw up Modern again, I will kill you.
3. Likewise for all other subjects, actually. You know my standards; surpass them!

Okay enough of the lists of academic blah. It's getting annoying. Back to rambly paragraphs now.

This year... please try to spend as little time as possible procrastinating really brainlessly. Also, please... don't do things extremely last minute, as in night-before/morning-before. It's... no. Just please don't do that. JUST IN CASE, OKAY. (You know what kind of a paranoiac I am. Thus I know what kind of paranoiac YOU are. Thus I know that 'just in case's work! Yeah that didn't make sense, whatever.)

Okay I'd better wrap this letter up before I get accused of large amounts of egotism (if my letter to 'myself' ends up longer than all the rest HAHAHA).

Hauptsache: VERTRAU DEINEM BAUCHGEFÜHL.

Good luck and take care of yourself (and keep your eyes open and your cardiac controls monitored) - AND DON'T STOP WRITING, OR DRAWING -
Rain

30letters- TWENTY-SIX

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

ATTN: Alissimo aka Alice aka Xerxes

Greetings! How are you? Come on, you didn't expect me to begin this letter in any kind of conventionally normal way, did you... well actually I was going to just write "Dear Alice" but seeing as I know many people named Alice, I thought some clarification was in order. Anyway.

I think you're cool. You're quite a nice person and - at least on the surface? - you're really, remarkably even-tempered. I don't think I've ever seen you snap at someone or explode at them, and you're nice to... almost everyone? It's... fairly amazing, I'd say.

You're also a really fun person to be around! If it weren't against my personal principles to describe maths class as fun, I'd say that you made three years' worth of maths classes quite fun. Enjoyable. Remember all those really weird things we'd ask people? Spelling of hypotenuse, frustum word-association... yeah, don't ask what that has to do with maths, except that those two examples originated in maths class, haha. And I feel obliged to include some sort of nostalgia/memory.

Anyway, one reason I think you're fun to be around is that I can talk to you about what seems like a large variety of inane/not-so-inane things. I can talk to you about etymology and language links without it turning into this awkward morass of "errr yeah and so what, why do I care?" (Or at least, I hope it doesn't do that...) And speaking of talking-senza-awkwardness, I love how on MSN you actually type more than 3-5 words at a time. You're one of the few people I actually have conversation-like conversations with online, and I think that's awesome... even if our exchanges end up being ten lines high and juggling three topics at once or whatever, hahaha.

Actually, sometimes I wonder if I come off as annoyingly clingy/pester-y to you, e.g. when I talk to you so much - which is to say, sometimes I wonder if I'm annoying you. If I am, you don't seem to show it, but then again, I'm both randomly unobservant AND sporadically paranoid... so yeah. Sorry if I do. Ergh.

Okay now I figure it's time to mention the actual pinky promise connection in this exorbitant letter before I feel compelled to end it in order to prevent it from becoming even longer. The last pinky promise I made was with you, and it was a really one-sided promise, i.e. that you'd wait for me and Fio to come out of VA class before you and Elaine went off to 7/11 for dollar day thing. (And you kept the promise, hurrah!)

That ties off nicely into another ego-feeding thing for you, which is that I quite like and appreciate how you're not often averse to waiting for people and/or meeting up with them at random times/places if they ask/beg/pester... okay, that sounds weird but you know what I mean? Example, when I left my USB at the library and we were almost at the bus lines and you went with me to retrieve it... and when you stayed behind with me to get my German marks haha. Even though most of the time I'm a huge pest and wheedle you into staying behind/etc.

Last of all, you're a great friend in that you listen to my various rants/neuroses, and you put up with my annoying-ness - so thanks a lot for that! And, of course, thank you for letting me scab food of you, for lending me money when I need it, for giving me random songs I want and for just being generally, fantastically awesome.

Love,
Sunny (...aka Leonidas aka SLEAZY DUSTBALL - seeee, I even signed off with that moniker, as a sign of how much I love you! Feel the honourrrrr.)

30letters- TWENTY-FOUR

Day 24 — The person who gave you your favourite memory

To my friends,

You guys are awesome. I think most of my favourite memories (I can't actually pick out one, hahaha) involve you guys, so thus, you rock. Thank you for making me laugh, for being there when I needed it, and for making meaningless inane things meaningful. Love you!
 
Rain

30letters- TWENTY-ONE

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Hi Elena,

I'm really glad that I got to know you a little this year because it's dislodged the unfair, presumptuous impression/opinion I had of you beforehand. You're pretty nice and cool, and I'm sorry for judging you when I didn't even know you.

Blindly hoping you won't hold this too much against me,
Sunny

30letters- TWENTY

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Hello hypothetical probable-asshole,

Our paths have never crossed. Let's make sure it stays that way.

Rain

Aaaagh this image is so heart-twisting.

Caption from Wikipedia:

Chinese baby crying in the ruins of Shanghai South Railway Station after a bombing by the Imperial Japanese Navy Air Service on 28 August 1937

Today I learned...

that using the Nazi salute or Nazi greetings (e.g. Heil Hitler) in Germany can actually get you chucked into prison.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nazi_salute#After_1945

this came from facebook but because i'm an antisocial block of lard i'm posting it here instead

...Hahahah this is silly/fun/tempting. And if none of you fill this in I will be deeply traumatised*.
Especially if it's YOU, LIA, BECAUSE I COMMENTED ON YOURS.

*and become even more antisocial and maybe even stop doing these memes and actually spend my time productively... ahh but seriously, I'm curious to see what you guys think x)

THIS:

Pick one word from each pair that you think describes me the best and comment with your choices. Then copy this and post it in your own journal to see how your friends view you.

* dominant or submissive
* logical or intuitive
* social or loner
* kinky or vanilla
* cute or sophisticated
* kitten or puppy
* warm flannel sheets or sleek satin
* leader or follower
* quiet or talkative
* spontaneous or planned
* teddy bear or porcelain doll
* hiking or window shopping
* tequila or vodka
* top or bottom
* bare foot or shoes
* jeans or slacks
* tender or rough
* aware or dreamy
* nerd or jock
* brains or brawn
* common sense or book smarts

30letters- FIVE

Day 5 — Your dreams

Hello, dreams,

After scanning the first line on the Wikipedia article of "Dream" I realise just how weird you and your brethren are... successions of images, sounds and emotions experienced while asleep? Weirrrrd. But that doesn't make you completely weird, seeing as that description pertains only to your literal selves, and in this letter I am addressing 'you' to include both your literal and figurate selves - both those of you who greet me while asleep, and those that I call upon while I am awake.

Okay, that's somewhat rambly. But so are you.

To my literal dreams - you're cool. Sometimes. And sometimes you're really weird, and sometimes you're frightening. It hasn't happened for several years now, but you used to scare me a lot when I was in your grip... though now, of course, in hindsight you seemed kind of cool, even your nightmarish selves. (I wonder if you're going to get me back for making you sound somewhat like a novelty...) At the moment, though, you seem to be leaving me alone. Haven't seen you guys in a while... or maybe you're just not bothering to embed yourselves in my memory deeply enough. In which case... suit yourselves, I'm fine with that.

To my waking-world figurative dreams - I don't have much to say to you, except that you are awesome in that you are one of my prime motivations to actually do stuff. Awesome awesome awesome. I really wouldn't want to live in a world without you.

I remain,
Your sometimes-conscious dreamer

Day 5 — Your dreams

my kinda guy ;D

So I got auto-tagged on deviantART lol. Also, Ri asked me on fs about ideal guy so er... this can fill it in!
OH AND AND I TAG EVERYONE READING THIS.


1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
As long as I find him attractive it's fine haha.

2. Smart?
HELL YES. Street-smart over book-smart if I could only pick one but obviously both would be good heheh.

3. Preferred age?
Same age as me or older. Preferably not older by ... three years or so? Yes I have a very narrow range hahaha.

4. Preferred height?
Taller than me by a couple inches or more. But not more than a head taller?

5. How about sense of humor?
YES PLEASE. But not in a stupid/douchebag way. Or in an excessively vicious/sardonic way. Witty would be good, and able to laugh at themselves... hahaha.

6. How about piercings?
If so... the only piercings I think I wouldn't mind would be eyebrow/ear. Anything else, no thanks. And no excessive piercings either, and by excessive I think I mean "more than two" LOL.

7. Accepts you for who you are?
Obviously yes.

8. Pink hair?
Er... not unless he looks really good with it hahaha.

9. Mushy or no?
Hmm. If the mushy is done well... er... why does the word mushy sound so bad. Anyway. Hmm. My answer... yes, if it befits the situation. No constantly-excessively-mushy, thanks.

10. Thin or fat?
Out of only those two? ...Thin.

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
Err... as long as there aren't any huge clashes on a cultural (or individual, for that matter) level... I don't mind?

12. Long hair or short hair?
The length that looks better on him hahahah.

13. Plastic or metal?
What the.

14. Smells good?
Yes hahah. But... no cologne/etc. thanks.

15. Smoker?
NO WAY.

16. Drinker?
NO WAY. (by drinker I mean person who consumes alcohol regularly in notably large amounts)

17. Boy-next-door type?
What does this mean, the nice/sweet type? Sure.

18. Muscular?
If so, preferably lean at the same time hahahah.

19. Plays piano?
Why not?

20. Sings very good?
That would be nice... however, I CANNOT SING so... don't mind.

21. Vain?
About appearances? As long as it's not to a douchebaggy level. And as long as he doesn't use more styling products than I do hahah. ...Actually, preferably not vain. But not utterly, completely careless about appearance either. As in, basic hygiene and at-least-somewhat-decent clothes = good. ANNND he can't pick on my about my own appearance/clothes/etc. (unless I look truly, abjectly, objectively horrendous) ...I'm rambling, aren't I. And possibly no longer making sense...

22. With glasses?
I don't mind.

23. With braces?
As in teeth braces... haha I don't mind.

24. Shy type?
As long as we can get along well, it's fine...?

25. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Good boy thanks... assuming rebel means the type who does stupid/reckless/stupidly!reckless things fairly often...

26. Singer or dancer?
Either? Hmm I don't know.

27. Dimples?
Why not?

28. Bookworm?
Oh yes please.

29. Playful?
Mmmm why not haha.

30. Flirt?
Sure... AS LONG AS IT'S WITH NO-ONE BUT ME HAHAHAHHA.

31. Poem writer?
As long as it's good poetry hahaha. Emphasis on good. Did I mention it has to be good poetry? Yeah.

32. Serious?
When the time calls for it, yes. But not serious ALL THE TIME because that's no fun.

33. Painter?
Ooh that'd be cool. Don't mind though.

34. Religious?
No thanks.

35. Someone who likes to tease people?
As long as it's not other girls lol.

36. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
As long as it's not to a... debilitatingly antisocial/annoying degree hahaha.

37. Speaks 20 languages?
Let me pick myself up from the floor in shock... yeah that'd be cool. And awesome. Awesome!

38. Loyal or faithful?
...Huh? BOTH, THANKS....? Someone clarify this.

39. Good kisser?
Duhhhhh hahahhaha.

40. Loves children?
Hmm... don't mind. Actually, calrification: I'd like him to share my views about children. Now let me just go figure out what exactly my own views about children are...

bitchbitchbitch

Why does hair have to grow.
Why can't we have hair-growing potions that make your hair grow faster.
WHY ARE THE HOLIDAYS ONLY TWO WEEKS.
WHAT THE HELL.


Anyone knows what this is pertaining to gets a cookie of the virtual awesome kind.